I am Pasha, I have a disorder of the schizophrenic spectrum, the diagnosis code on the card is periodically updated, and nevertheless, it refers to the schizophrenic spectrum. Symptoms are schizophrenia, but I see strong opposition from doctors on the question "why does the medical card have a different diagnosis code?" Although they usually agree that: "Yes, you have de facto schizophrenia, but we won't put it to you." Belarusian psychiatry is quite pipelined and is not in very good condition, and you have to dig into psychiatry and yourself to somehow pull yourself out. For the first time, when I turned to doctors at the age of 18, I was given a schizotypal disorder – it could be diagnosed as a child. It intersects strongly with Asperger's Syndrome (this is a form of autism). In terms of thinking, in behaviour, I'm pretty close to autistic people. And, in general, what people with autism say to themselves about neurodiversity, etc. can often be carried on people with schizophrenic spectrum disorders.
When I was a child, it was completely incomprehensible to me how people interact with each other. How communication is arranged, how small talk or chatter is arranged, how to joke, what is humour, how are the unspoken agreements are arranged in the communication of people. I read manuals on adaptation to society for people with autism and Asperger syndrome and I have many things from there, they really helped. Now, after many years, I see that banal, simple, obvious things are painted there. For example, there explains how to understand what people say with irony or sarcasm, how to respond to jokes when taking offence at them and when not. At school, I was a complete outcast. We had a tough hierarchy, bullying, aimed at people who "do not fit." I was at a great distance from people and did not even learn the basic types of interaction, as a result, I went into imaginary abstract worlds. The teachers were not trained and/or were not interested in breaking this hierarchy somehow, yes often they participated in what was happening. One of the positive aspects is the promotion of the topic of childhood autism, inclusive education (for example, schools where autistic and non-autistic people study together), neurodiversity and diversity, in general, is that the hierarchy described above breaks down piece by piece and rebuilds, and persecution unusual people in schools or the workplace is becoming slightly less.
When the environment became less aggressive, there was more desire and opportunity to learn social interactions. I had to compensate for the lack of intuition with analytical schemes, learn to build some simplified models of human psychology in my head, try to calculate how someone's psyche is arranged. I had to learn this almost from a textbook.
I saw and see the great injustice of how our society works and I do not want to fit into it now. At the same time, I wanted to understand at least the basics of how communication between people works, why I should behave this way and not otherwise. I did not really learn normal chatter. During conversations, I usually load people with abstract reasoning, diagrams. I find a common language mainly with people whose interests are directed towards something scientific, technical, towards art. This is enough for me. The described, probably, formally is not quite discrimination, but in fact, it is. The question here is not even that I can somehow be prevented by the presence of a mental disorder in my medical record and not in legal issues related to this (of course, it exists, but not so primary), but with the tendency of people with such disorders or mental features who automatically become outcasts, white crows simply at the level of intuition of other people, even if other people do not know about the presence of any diagnosis.